07/05/02
Multiple Personality
This is vague; it was to begin with. In it, I was at home in my living room, relating to somebody else--either a parent or a therapist of some sort--my fears that I might be going crazy. I seemed to have been near the footstool, only facing the couch, and low to the ground. I was near hysterical; I get the feeling I may have been "hamming it up" a bit for the attention, but I really WAS freaked out. Really weird things were happening with my head.
For one thing, I told this other person (I think they were female), I kept losing time. In real life this sort of happened for about a week, only it was during my sleep--I kept losing the same hour each day. In my dream, I think it had started happening during my waking hours too. I'd come to with big gaps of time missing and no idea what I'd been doing during then. For another thing, I told her(?), I often came to to find things that I had written--yet I didn't remember writing them. They were usually notes and journal entries and such addressed to me, as if they were trying to explain to me what was going on, but I had no recollection of ever writing them! I think they were also written in different styles.
There may have been more symptoms I was experiencing, but those are the only two specific ones I can recall. Maybe I also claimed to have sudden headaches? Not sure. All I know is I was panicking now. I didn't even know what I was doing half the time! I was truly fearing that I was developing DID (dissociative identity disorder--formerly known as multiple personality disorder), and I wasn't sure why. You usually have to live through some horrific, repeated trauma to develop that...what were my mental problems trying to tell me?
I Watch Too Much DBZ, I Admit
During a nap, I had some strange dreams featuring, again, Dragon Ball Z--I think it was like they were advertising it in a McDonald's commercial; I remember Frieza laughing, and Vegeta and Master Roshi talking; and I knew what they were going to say so I was saying it along with them, sort of amused. I think the reason this happened was because the show was on while I was sleeping, so I overheard parts of it in my sleep; Frieza probably really DID laugh like that!
2002 Dreams
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