08/11/01
Scandisk Snafu


I know I had more dreams than this last night--I even started to write them down--but I was so tired the whole time that I forgot!!

The only one I remember concerned my computer. In real life this thing has been giving me SO much grief. It's always pulling illegal functions and fatal errors and such, and I NEVER know why it does this. One more recent one said something like "Mmkeybd" was responsible, and someone said that may signal a corruption in the keyboard driver. Just what we need!! And there's no fix named for it. *sigh* Plus, it seems like every other day I have to shut it down improperly because of the Blue Screen of Death or else Control+Alt+Delete has failed me. (Yes--even THAT doesn't work sometimes--like the day before yesterday!) And last night, I was so mad at Yahoo! for working improperly that I slammed my hand into everything within reach, including the keyboard. So of course...you can see this machine gives me lots of things to worry and thus dream about.

Well, in my dream it was daytime, seemed to be afternoon but earlier than I would be up--so, pre-five-thirty. I was sitting at the computer typing away, or surfing away, doing whatever online. And then, for no reason whatsoever, I leaned over and SHUT OFF the computer right while I was in the middle of things. !!! Only AFTER I had done this stupid thing did I start berating myself. "What did I do THAT for?! I just turned the thing off WHILE I WAS ONLINE!! How STUPID can I be?!"

So I knew it would do a ScanDisk. Feeling like a complete idiot and ready to cry, I turned the computer back on and waited for the blue screen to appear and tell me to "Shut down your computer properly" in the future. (STUPID!!) ScanDisk came up and it started scanning, same as usual...but when it had gotten a certain percentage (less than a quarter, I think) through, the blue screen disappeared, and a DIFFERENT screen came up.

??

What was THIS about?? I leaned forward to look at it. I can't remember what it said or what it was about, but it was some program on the computer, and instead of showing just the blue screen while it scanned different areas of the hard drive, it was bringing up different screens having to do with the different programs it was scanning. This was one of them. It scanned a certain percentage, then a new screen came up to replace that one. I do remember that one of them had a light background, perhaps very pale pink or dusty rose or something. I believe the screen switched at least three or four times, probably more, while I watched and waited. ScanDisk ALWAYS seems to take forever!

As it neared the end, I found out the horrible truth. It discovered at least two bad sectors on the hard drive. OOOOHHHHHH!! I KNEW that would happen, with how often I have to shut it down improperly! And this time, it was all MY fault! What had I been thinking when I'd just turned it off in the middle of things??

I was getting more and more upset. I think that the program affected was WinZip, though I can't be certain. Windows said it had repaired the damaged sectors on its own, as I think ScanDisk is supposed to do if it's able, but that didn't make me feel much better. What if it was just a temporary fix, until the hard drive was meant to be REALLY fixed--by a professional--costing money? As it finished scanning and went into Windows I believe I started crying. I just couldn't get over how dumb I had been, and how I had to blame all this on myself.

Ma came into the room from--somewhere. From the kitchen, I think, but where from before that? Had she been there all along, or had she been out, maybe working? Not sure, but she came over to ask what was wrong. She wasn't mad or anything; in fact she was very quiet and softspoken. I turned to her, crying so hard I could barely speak, and tried to point out what had happened with our computer. I'd just turned it off for no reason while I was online, and now part of the hard drive had gone bad! Because of ME!

Nope, never reached a resolution in this dream...



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